from the moment i woke up this morning i did not feel necessarily that right

i texted her

she didn't wake up til 11
and she missed her classes

that was the first sign for me

the second and final sign was when she told me

now i feel it

her head = my head.  no matter what.

sitting in the coffee shop at illinois wesleyan
watching her work
watching brink on her laptop

i am having an amazing weekend
god i have missed her
and
i fucking miss luther

i know something

and i feel so guilty knowing it

i wish this person felt guilty

and fucking fessed up

i mean now there's money involved

i've shushed up about a lot things


but this one kinda hurts knowing
and i think typing that i feel terrible might help




ease my guilt